Day 1

So it begins........

Today is the realization that I need to do something about my weight. For many years I knew I was "Chubby". Believe me, every fat girl knows she's fat. Everyone isn't afraid to tell her. From family to friends , and magazines to TV. We know we're fat. We have mirrors.

But back to my subject. I have always wanted to be healthier, especially after having my son. This time I have a true purpose.......my son. I don't want to be the fat Mom that he's embarrassed to admit is his. I want him to be proud of me.

Ok so today I decided .....
It was like a light switch turned on in my brain. I was ready to get fit. I know I said that every time I tried a new quick lose program . But this time it was real! So as I put down my son for his nap, I started to get dressed. Not just the usual Jeans and T-shirt uniform, but clothes to walk in. I wanted to see how far I could walk before I died of fat exhaustion. ;)

So as soon as the DH came home I was ready to go with my ipod of workout tunes.
(My soundtrack of my life)

I surprised myself of how ready I was......maybe too ready. I hoped I wouldn't disappoint myself. I hoped to at least walk a mile without wanting to give up.
So as soon as the DH walked in I said my usual greeting "Hi Bub how was work?" This time I added "I'm going walking!" He was quiet for a second processing what I had said. But then with a smile he says, "Cool have fun". So with that, I put my ipod in my ears and took off in the cold neighborhood. Oh ya I forgot to mention it was a very cold 45 degree Arizona day. I didn't care I was determined.

I headed out walking , thinking, and a little proud that I made the first step. As I walked I started to make little distance marks/goals in my head. The first major street would tell me how far i could go. If I made it there without being winded I could keep going. So as I approached that first mark I thought to myself "I can keep going" and I did. So on to the next marker/goal. At this point my muscles were reminding me that I have not done this in a very looooong time, but I could handle it, I was ok.
I had been jamming out to my favorite tunes and blocking out the rest of the world. Which can be hard because most people who see a fat girl walking always have the habit of staring and judging .....well that's what I usually think in my head. I didnt care, before I knew it i was at my farthest marker. This was my halfway point , but I didn't want to stop. I felt I could go on, I was determined at that point to go all the way. My Big Goal

So I did, I kept on going without stopping. I was actually enjoying myself. I didnt know if it was the endorphines talking or what but I was actually getting into this walk and walking faster. It was funny but I even felt like every passerby was cheering me on...... then again all those smiles may have been because they were almost homefrom their long day at work......its ok I still pretended it was cheering. LOL

So by this time I was almost to my destination goal my friends house. I knew she would be on her way home, I could stop, get some water and hitch a ride home. Finally I was there, my friends house. By then my face was frozen and I was very thirsty.
*note to self, must wear beanie and gloves*
so as I came in I kept moving , for fear I would cramp up. I had a little talk with my friend about my new change, got some much needed water, but kept moving and stretching. I was kinda sore but a good sore. So after laughing and talking with my friend I decided I would keep going, walking all the way back home. By this point I thought "Eh" it's not so far and continued on my way . I was so happy with myself, singing and dancing ALL the way home. It was pretty fun....cold....but fun.
After I got home I wanted to measure how far I went so the next day I took my car and checked it out . I couldn't believe it , it was 5 miles!!!!!
Pretty good for my first day!

I was proud *^_^*